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activity -
amatomnes - december 2012
Dec. 4th, 2012 08:01 pm4: Garak asks Cassie if she's heard from Claudia yet.
7: Garak trolls Kira again.
8: Garak volunteers to help Shayla.
9: Garak and Rai snark religion.
14: Garak welcomes Albert to the island.
14: Garak and Travis talk roleplay & science.
17: Garak and Kira think they're married.
21: Garak welcomes Claudia back.
22: Garak and Chloe talk snow.
23: Post-marriage curse, Garak trolls Kira.
29: Garak trolls Sebastian.
30: Atia gave Jadzia a little gift from home.
7: Garak trolls Kira again.
8: Garak volunteers to help Shayla.
9: Garak and Rai snark religion.
14: Garak welcomes Albert to the island.
14: Garak and Travis talk roleplay & science.
17: Garak and Kira think they're married.
21: Garak welcomes Claudia back.
22: Garak and Chloe talk snow.
23: Post-marriage curse, Garak trolls Kira.
29: Garak trolls Sebastian.
30: Atia gave Jadzia a little gift from home.
activity -
amatomnes - november 2012
Nov. 2nd, 2012 09:36 pm2: Both Ryan and the Meister are gone from the Opera House. This concerns Garak.
4: Jadzia and Garak are worried about Julian.
4: Garak and Inara talk gardens.
4: Julian volunteers to help Inara and Garak worries.
9: Garak assembles the materials for him and Claudia to try bootlegging kanar.
12: Kira arrives.
13: Inara interviews Garak. Or is it an interrogation?
13: Garak gives Ser Loras advice on honesty.
14: Garak welcomes Asellus to Atia.
16: Ezri arrives on the island.
21: Julian's birthday party
30: Garak and Abby talk about bowling.
4: Jadzia and Garak are worried about Julian.
4: Garak and Inara talk gardens.
4: Julian volunteers to help Inara and Garak worries.
9: Garak assembles the materials for him and Claudia to try bootlegging kanar.
12: Kira arrives.
13: Inara interviews Garak. Or is it an interrogation?
13: Garak gives Ser Loras advice on honesty.
14: Garak welcomes Asellus to Atia.
16: Ezri arrives on the island.
21: Julian's birthday party
30: Garak and Abby talk about bowling.
you are the music while the music lasts
Oct. 5th, 2012 08:25 pm𝄡 FENCES ➤ paramore | |
Don't look up, just let them think There's no place else you'd rather be You're always on display For everyone to watch and learn from Don't you know by now? You can't turn back Because this road is all you'll ever have |
𝄡 MIRACLE ➤ paramore | |
I'm not going 'Cause I've been waiting for a miracle And I'm not leaving I won't let you, let you give up on a miracle When it might save you |
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activity - Amat Omnes - october 2012
Oct. 2nd, 2012 07:25 pm1: Garak and Ryan are excited about the upcoming play.
2: Garak visits the cafe and admires Rapunzel's new mural.
4: Garak asks for book recommendations.
5: Garak offers to make costumes for the Halloween Masquerade.
8: Jadzia goes to drop some books off at Garak's place, and drops her pants instead.
9: Garak and Bashir go sightseeing.
15: Garak offers to help Naoto with a costume.
15: Garak finds out that Euphie left him the clothing boutique.
15: Garak talks to Angela about yoga classes.
22: Garak offers to help Dejah.
24: Garak re-opens Go with the Flow.
2: Garak visits the cafe and admires Rapunzel's new mural.
4: Garak asks for book recommendations.
5: Garak offers to make costumes for the Halloween Masquerade.
8: Jadzia goes to drop some books off at Garak's place, and drops her pants instead.
9: Garak and Bashir go sightseeing.
15: Garak offers to help Naoto with a costume.
15: Garak finds out that Euphie left him the clothing boutique.
15: Garak talks to Angela about yoga classes.
22: Garak offers to help Dejah.
24: Garak re-opens Go with the Flow.
what's that man up to?
Sep. 18th, 2012 07:34 amWhen not interrogating other new arrivals and trolling the religious, Garak has been settling into the Opera House and exploring some. He's been making "friends" in the market, and he's been to visit the Temple of Atia, though he hasn't gone in just yet.
He's also testing the limits of his collar. He very briefly tried to get it off with tools, but it didn't work and he honestly didn't expect it to. He'd been informed about the two week rule, and now he's testing to see if it's true. Oh, he'll have sex before dying -- he's too contrary to die and it's not like it'd do him much good anyway -- but he's curious to see if his Cardassian biology alters the timeline any and what tricks he can use to extend it. Since Cardassians have a higher pain tolerance than humans, the pain of the collar isn't bothering him much, but it's definitely there, and the implant isn't doing anything about it. He had suspected he'd become addicted, but this is proof.
Not that he's going to do anything about it. It would make him vulnerable, and he's loathe to reveal any secrets, even if they're killing him. Besides, he may be addicted but it's not a problem.
He's also testing the limits of his collar. He very briefly tried to get it off with tools, but it didn't work and he honestly didn't expect it to. He'd been informed about the two week rule, and now he's testing to see if it's true. Oh, he'll have sex before dying -- he's too contrary to die and it's not like it'd do him much good anyway -- but he's curious to see if his Cardassian biology alters the timeline any and what tricks he can use to extend it. Since Cardassians have a higher pain tolerance than humans, the pain of the collar isn't bothering him much, but it's definitely there, and the implant isn't doing anything about it. He had suspected he'd become addicted, but this is proof.
Not that he's going to do anything about it. It would make him vulnerable, and he's loathe to reveal any secrets, even if they're killing him. Besides, he may be addicted but it's not a problem.
Words to Remember
Sep. 8th, 2012 04:07 pmWhen you were a small boy, I was worried about you. Always getting in trouble. Secretive… so full of deceit. Little did I know you would turn such distasteful characteristics into virtues.
Mila
Bashir: The next day the boy does it again and the next two and on the fourth day a wolf really comes. The boy cries out to the top of his lungs, but the villagers ignore him and the boy and his flock are gobbled up.
Garak: That’s a little graphic for children, wouldn’t you say?
Bashir: But the point is; if you lie all the time nobody’s going to believe you, even when you’re telling the truth.
Garak: Are you sure that’s the point, doctor?
Bashir: Of course. What else could it be?
Garak: You should never tell the same lie twice.
Bashir & Garak
It’s a lot more fun asking questions than answering them.
Garak
Enemies make dangerous friends.
Cardassian proverb, related by Garak
Quark: I want you to try something for me. Take a sip of this.
Garak: What is it?
Quark: A human drink. It's called root beer.
Garak: I don't know...
Quark: C'mon...aren't you just a little bit curious?
Garak: *drinks*.......It's vile!
Quark: I know.... It's so bubbly and cloying and happy.
Garak: Just like The Federation.
Quark: But you know what's really frightening? If you drink enough of it, you'll begin to like it.
Garak: It's insidious.
Quark: Just like The Federation.
Garak & Quark
Non-DS9 Quotes
God, but life is loneliness, despite all the opiates, despite the shrill tinsel gaiety of “parties” with no purpose, despite the false grinning faces we all wear. And when at last you find someone to whom you feel you can pour out your soul, you stop in shock at the words you utter - they are so rusty, so ugly, so meaningless and feeble from being kept in the small cramped dark inside you so long. Yes, there is joy, fulfillment and companionship - but the loneliness of the soul in its appalling self-consciousness, is horrible and overpowering.
Sylvia Plath
Perhaps in the margins of darkness, I could create a son who is not missing; who lives beyond even my own imagination and invention; whose lusts, stupidities, and strengths carry him farther than even he or I can anticipate; who sees the world for what it is; and consequently bears the burden of everyone’s tomorrow with unprecedented wisdom and honor because he is one of the very few who has successfully interrogated his own nature. His shields are instantly available though seldom used. And those who value him shall prosper while those who would destroy him shall perish. He will fulfill a promise I made years ago but failed to keep.
Then no matter where you are, in a crowded restaurant or on some desolate street or even in the comforts of your own home, you’ll watch yourself dismantle every assurance you ever lived by. You’ll stand aside as a great complexity intrudes, tearing apart, piece by piece, all your carefully conceived denials, whether deliberate or unconscious. And for better or worse you’ll turn, unable to resist, though try to resist you still will, fighting with everything you’ve got not to face the thing you most dread, what is now, what will be, what has always come before, the creature you truly are, the creature we all are, buried in the nameless black of a name.
And then the nightmares will begin.
Who has not asked himself at some time or other: am I a monster or is this what it means to be a person?
What is poetry which does not save
Nations or people?
A connivance with official lies,
A song of drunkards whose throats will be cut in a moment,
Readings for sophomore girls.
That I wanted good poetry without knowing it,
That I discovered, late, its salutary aim,
In this and only this I find salvation.
The history of my stupidity will not be written.
For one thing, it’s late. And the truth is laborious.
Headcanon & Fanon for
amatomnes
Sep. 8th, 2012 03:41 pmPlease consider all links NSFW.
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Game Established Headcanon
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Game Established Headcanon
- Garak likes children
- ekoorjak: A Cardassian martial art similar to yoga
- trasekt : the male sexual organ
activity - Amat Omnes - september 2012
Sep. 8th, 2012 03:39 pmAll Amat entries are locked to current players only.
*9: Garak tries to figure out how to use these so-called "smartphones."
10: Garak brings his broken device to Claudia.
11: Garak asks Robert about the forest.
12: Garak talks with Anne about her previous time in Atia.
12: Garak talks religion.
12: Garak is glad he comes from a world without religion.
12: Garak gets himself a home and a job at the Opera House.
15: Garak pumps Edel for information about her previous stay.
17: Garak plays a game of poetry.
19: Garak's uncertain about petitioning for a "god of booze."
19: Garak discusses the rules of the island with Hermione.
20: Garak admires the Maestro's...performance.
22: Garak is about to test how much time masturbation will buy him when Julian comes by.
28: Garak and Fred talk about her baby.
*9: Garak tries to figure out how to use these so-called "smartphones."
10: Garak brings his broken device to Claudia.
11: Garak asks Robert about the forest.
12: Garak talks with Anne about her previous time in Atia.
12: Garak talks religion.
12: Garak is glad he comes from a world without religion.
12: Garak gets himself a home and a job at the Opera House.
15: Garak pumps Edel for information about her previous stay.
17: Garak plays a game of poetry.
19: Garak's uncertain about petitioning for a "god of booze."
19: Garak discusses the rules of the island with Hermione.
20: Garak admires the Maestro's...performance.
22: Garak is about to test how much time masturbation will buy him when Julian comes by.
28: Garak and Fred talk about her baby.
Useful Meta
Sep. 8th, 2012 03:03 pmMusings on Cardassian Scales
So, what does this mean? At first I thought that scales could be compared to body hair on humans, with some having very little while others have a lot. The other idea is that it shows racial differences. Cardassians from some areas might just be more scaled than others, just as humans from different regions have varied appearances.
Images of Cardassia
Garak's Evolution From Torturer
Tain said that he use to have to restrain Garak from interrogating subjects for even the most lightest of suspicions, even Garak he had to drum up charges to do it, because he was good at it and it was fun. And then, when he gets his chance, he can’t do it. Five or six years, four of them with the crew, and he barely go through with Odo’s interrogation.
What changed? It can’t have all been Julian, though goodness knows that boy will wear you down given enough time. Did Federation ideals of the sacredness of life seep in? Did he realize that it was empty power and unnecessary cruelty for its own sake, like in the story with the Bajoran children? Was it having to put a face and personal history instead of dry records and lifeless pictures to a subject that made him want to stop? Was it sympathizing with Odo as a fellow exile? Tain losing his luster as the center of his universe? Losing his desensitization of violence after living in relative peace for so long?
Garak versus Dukat
Sisko provides the goal and the resources during In the Pale Moonlight, but it’s Garak who does everything to bring the Romulans into the war. Yes, his methods are shady, and Sisko doesn’t appreciate it when Garak tells him “you may have just saved the entire Alpha Quadrant”; but it’s interesting that Garak says YOU and not WE. You’d better believe that if Dukat had been the one involved it would have been at least WE, if not I.
Garak lives his life in the background, while Dukat demands the spotlight.
Garak, Lies, and Cardassia
The sad part? From a strategic and utilitarian point of view, Garak’s decision to destroy the Founder’s planet, even at the cost of his own life and the lives of his Federation comrades, would probably have been the correct decision. It might well have prevented the war and spared billions of people tremendous suffering.
This scene demonstrates to me that for Garak, pious phrases about duty and sacrifice and the ultimate good of the State aren’t just empty bluster. He means every fucking word, and he’s got the courage to stand behind his convictions (and the ruthlessness to break as many eggs as it takes to make that particular omelette).
Garak and Tain
And behold: the most fucked up way of verbally acknowledging your illegitimate son EVER.
And what’s amazing about this is that Garak gets it. Tain doesn’t come right out and say “you are my son” or anything so direct - he would never do that. So instead he says this awful thing that stabs Garak in the heart but makes him happy too, because he’s being acknowledged as his father’s son at last. (And in front of a witness, no less - even though Tain doesn’t know Bashir is there.)
Garak's Growth from Darkness
And once again Garak is in the infirmary. He looks so defeated here. Even his speech - a part of him that he so proudly cultivates and controls - fails him when he stutters while asking the Chief to deliver an apology on his behalf. The drug brought out the very worst of him, and he and the others are forced to acknowledge that his worst is quite horrific indeed. From moments such as his conversation with Tain (The Die is Cast) and lies and half-truths he told Bashir (The Wire) we know that Garak was capable of some rather vicious behavior, and he can still be ruthless when the circumstances are right (The Die is Cast, Broken Link). But perhaps he isn’t sure that this is the person he wants to be? In Season 5 we see him becoming more and more “helpful” (Things Past, In Purgatory’s Shadow, By Inferno’s Light), and despite the plausible deniability that his actions were motivated by self-interest, there does seem to be something genuine there too. (Especially when circumstances involve people like Bashir, Ziyal, or Odo.) This episode is a vivid reminder of just how dangerous Garak can be, and in this moment Garak seems singularly unhappy about that.
Garak and Odo
I know it was a means to an end, but I still think it’s sweet how Garak takes his assignment to entertain Odo very seriously. (I’m also rather fond of their odd little “friendship.” Even on a station full of outcasts, these two share a unique bond as outcasts in that they were both discarded by their people in some way - plus they seem to have a mutual respect for each others’ craftiness.)
Garak & Truth
you may think it strange that honesty would be a reason that I love garak given his penchant for telling, and encouraging bashir to tell, lies. however I believe him to be one of the most forthcoming people on the station. if you know what to look for you can look past the words. bashir figured this out in the end and became a much stronger person himself for it. and much like benjamin was angry that vreenak was killed, he was angrier with himself that garak was right and had been right all along. garak’s going to tell you the truth, it just may not be the truth you want to hear.
Garak lies by telling the truth
Garak's Development
Although he was Tain’s right hand, it’s likely he was never fully able to submerge his individuality, ingenuity or charm. And his motives are always complex and layered, and he is ultimately able to reconcile (as much as possible) his fervent patriotism with a recognition that loving one’s people/homeworld does not mean accepting it exactly as it is. For a Cardassian, especially one with his background, this is a pretty big deal, and Garak’s doubts and setbacks and conflicts about his loyalties are convincingly rendered.
JULIAN BASHIR
Garak & Bashir According to Andrew Robinson
But then it turned into a friendship.
Garak & Bashir According to Alexander Siddig
I think it's time to let it out of the bag that we had this huge homosexual relationship.
Chocolate
CLEARLY, THIS IS WITCHCRAFT AND I MUST LEARN HOW HE DID IT FOR THE GOOD OF THE STATE. BY CONTINUING TO STARE AT HIS FACE. YES.
Garak's sexuality
I started out playing Garak as someone who doesn’t have a defined sexuality. He’s not gay, he’s not straight, it’s a non-issue for him. Basically his sexuality is inclusive. But—it’s Star Trek and there were a couple of things working against that. One is that Americans really are very nervous about sexual ambiguity. Also, this is a family show, they have to keep it on the “straight and narrow”, so then I backed off from it. Originally, in that very first episode, I loved the man’s absolute fearlessness about presenting himself to an attractive human being. The fact that the attractive human being is a man (Bashir) doesn’t make any difference to him, but that was a little too sophisticated I think.
Cast & Crew
one of the writers has also admitted that he wrote Garak as attracted to Bashir.
re: Julian's genetic engineering
I haven't finished reading A Stitch in Time, so this could all be wrong. But taken outside of the context of the Dominion war, I don't feel like the revelation would throw Garak on that much of a loop.
It would a bit, of course. There's the element of wounded pride, and it certainly changes the power dynamic to have Julian actually be a better liar than Garak in certain respects. But he doesn't have the vanity of Gul Dukat, and unlike the Federation and Bajoran personnel, he places little value in trust or the truth. So while the sudden shift in their dynamic would certainly throw him a bit, I feel like under normal circumstances, Garak would just roll with it. After all, Cardassians don't have the same attitude towards genetic engineering as the Federation does. The Eugenics War that's the whole reason for the ban on genetic enhancement only happened on Earth, and in fact, Cardassia is well known for its genetic engineering. Garak wouldn't have the same visceral disgust and horror that the Federation personnel did.
I feel like a lot of Garak's poor reaction to Julian's enhanced status was simply the stress of the Dominion war. Not only is he still an exile, but he's an exile who is actively working against the government of a planet that he still adores. The work he does is killing his own people. He's surrounded by people who either hate him or distrust him or both. He's constantly cold and claustrophobic, and he no longer has the implant to make the pain go away.
He snipes at Julian for being genetically enhanced, because he knows that's a sore point for Julian. He's stressed out and lashing out and not bothering to pull his emotional punches. We see him do that same thing with Ezri Dax when she tries to help him. He finds her weak points and then he beats at them with a hammer because he's angry and hurting and if you dare come near him he will make you hurt too.